So I turned 31 today and so far the day has been great. My friends have posted on my FB wall wishing me a fantabulous birthday. My cube was decorated by a mystery co-worker, probably Linda who is on vacation, and the most amazing chocolate cake with cream cheese frosting from Whole Foods. It's been a great day.
Last year after my birthday was when I met J. It would have been nice to celebrate the day with him if we were still together. He probably would have either taken me to dinner or made dinner. His gifts were simple, but they meant a lot. I know the we weren't meant to be, but I still miss the douche. It's getting easier everyday to be single again and I think of him less and less. I still think we had some good times and I don't regret being in a relationship with him at all. I realize it's ok to miss him and still move on. It would've been nice if he wished me happy birthday too. I guess he's giving me space and avoiding me (might be afraid that I'd still be hurt).
I don't really like celebrating my birthday for some reason. I enjoy celebrating other people's more. The good part is that I got to work from home this morning and then come into work just so I can go to lunch. I did do a lot of work from home and after lunch, so I don't feel bad. Everyday isn't my birthday, so I can relax a bit.
My weekend is so booked, so I'm not really doing anything primarily for me. I got a bachelor bar crawl to go to on Friday, dragon boat racing from 7:30 to 5pm on Saturday, and a wedding to go to on Sunday. So much for relaxing during a 3 day weekend. Good thing is that I get to hang out with my good friends and share my weekend with them. I hardly doubt that I'm gonna get birthday booty, but it's all good. I'd rather save sex for when it's more meaningful and with someone meaningful. I haven't been as slutty as I thought I would be being single again and I'm fine with that. At the same time, I don't want to be a serial monogamous/dater.
I want my 31st year of life to be a great one and maybe if I believe it will be, then it'll come true. So far so good. I'm thankful for my family and the great friends I've made throughout my life. Also, with friends like mine, who needs enemies.
I still have this weird feeling that something big is gonna happen soon. Maybe life changing and I don't know what. Somehow I feel connected to it in a way. I hope it's good, cause I don't think I can take anymore bad news.
Anyways, thanks for listening. 31 years I've been on this earth and I've experienced a lot for someone my age....sometimes I think it's a bit much. I surprised I'm not crazier than I should be. I have more strength than I think I have.
Later,
The Birthday boy
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