I got the weirdest IM today from my ex. Apparently he found out about me finding out about the whole hook up thing this past weekend. How in the world did he find out? Also, why in the world would he contact me about it? Geez, let's pour more salt in the wound. He seemed like he was concerned, but I think he was more concerned about how I found out and who told me. Does it really matter? I found out when I didn't want to know and let me deal with it.
Why does he care if I found out? He broke up with me because he didn't love me, so why should he care if I found out something about him that hurt me.
First off, I knew something was gonna happen when I saw him and the guy he hooked up with when they were talking. It's funny that I seem to have more intuition with him now that we are broken up. My nameless friend just confirmed it with me the following day when I didn't even ask for the information. This damn community is way too damn small. I asked him nicely not to tell me any more things about my ex.
Several things pissed me of about the IM today. First, he contacted me at work. Second, he acted concerned about me being hurt. If he was that concerned, he wouldn't have contacted me about it and contacted me at work. I don't know if he contacted me out of concern or to gloat or that he enjoys my misery or all of the above. Lastly, he dared to give me advice and said, "i only have a bit of advice, if you don't sniff around you shouldn't have to find these things outt." I can't believe he actually said that. Why the fuck would I want to sniff around in his private life knowing that I could hurt myself in the damn process?! Seriously?! Does he really believe that I want to torture myself this way? What a fucken insensitive asshole!!!!
I wouldn't be surprised if he was telling his friends that I found out and how crazy all he's exes become after the break up. Honestly, I don't think I'm being crazy by being pissy about it. I didn't contact him when I found out, so it's ok to be crazy to myself. Right? This whole thing is getting way messier than it needs to be.
Thanks for hearing me out.
Sincerely,
Crazy fucked up world
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